It’s 2 AM and I’m awake, as usual. Lately I’ve been unable to sleep until the sun rises. Stress is real.
This will be my last day at work. It’s a job that saved my life. I was fresh out of a bad relationship and I was still in a bad one with myself. I’d been unemployed for a year and I’d just started grad school. As someone whose ego was invested in school and work, I was lost.
Then I walked into this office full of amazing people who have become like family. In just under two years we’ve shared life, laughs, tears, and death. I’ve grown personally and professionally. I already know I’m going to shed mad tears as people leave work one by one, knowing that I might not be back (I’m up for a new position there–fingers crossed & prayers up, please). Yet, I take solace in the fact that endings leave room for beginnings.
Tomorrow, I’m also starting an exercise/clean eating challenge. In case you haven’t noticed, I’m a big/fat girl. There was a time when it hurt me to say that, but now I’m more comfortable with it. It is what it is, and it’s never interfered with my love life. But with a broken ankle and the subsequent damage to my knees, it has interfered with my day to day. So in an effort to save and strengthen my joints, I’ve decided to get moving.
I’ll be honest. I’m also doing this because I want to have more shopping options. What woman doesn’t want to throw on a fly, revealing dress? Plus, I’m just not here for Spanx. Sure I’ll rock them for smoothing purposes, but to create an illusion? Nawl, fam.
I’m not sure if I’ll be posting a ton about it. If anyone has questions, I’ll answer them to the best of my ability, but I’m no expert. I’m just a lady whose been bigger all my life and decided (finally) to do something about it. I’m actually kind of excited about the next 30 days.
I like change sometimes. On one hand, I’m sad to leave a safe space, yet I’m also grateful for the freedom to explore my options. I’m also eager to implement changes in my life that will only make me better, even though the road will be rough.
I’m ready for whatever.
Source:
http://www.thefilthytruth.com/index.php/2012/09/from-start-to-finish/